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Chapter 4 < Chapter 4 > WE AGNOSTICSIn the preceding , < IN THE PRECEDING > chapters < > you have learned something of alcoholism. We hope we have made clear the non-alcoholic distinction between the alcoholic and the < nonalcoholic >. If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit , entirely, or if < > when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic. If that be the case, you may be suffering from an illness which only a spiritual experience will conquer. To one who feels he is an atheist or agnostic such an experience seems impossible, but to continue as he is means disaster < , > especially if he is an alcoholic of the hell hopeless variety. To be doomed to an alcoholic < death > be "saved" – or < to live on a spiritual basis are > not < always > easy alternatives to face. But it isn't so difficult. About half of our < original > fellowship were of exactly that type. At first some of us tried to avoid the issue, hoping against hope we were not true alcoholics. But after a while we had to face the fact that we must find a spiritual basis of life – or else. Perhaps it is going to be that fifty way with you. But cheer up, something like < half > of us thought we were atheists or agnostics. Our experience shows that you need not be disconcerted. , If a mere code of morals < > or a better philosophy of life were sufficient to overcome alcoholism, many of us
45 would have recovered long ago. But we found that such codes and philosophies did not save us, no matter how much we tried. We could wish to be moral, we could wish to be philosophically comforted, in fact, we could will these things with all our might, but the needed power wasn't there. Our human resources, as marshalled by the will, were not sufficient; they failed utterly. Lack of power, that was our dilemma. We had to find A Power a power by which we could live, and it had to be < a Power > Greater than Ourselves < greater than ourselves >. Obviously. But where and how were we to find this Power? Well, that's exactly what this book is about. Its main object is to enable you to find a Power greater than your- , self < > which will solve your problem. That means we have written a book which we believe to be spiritual as well as moral. And it means, of course, that we are going to talk about God. Here difficulty arises with agnostics. Many times we talk to a new man and watch his hope rise as we discuss his alcoholic problems and explain our fellowship. But his face falls when we speak of spiritual matters, especially when we mention God, for we have re-opened a subject which our man thought he had neatly evaded or entirely ignored. We know how he feels. We have shared his honest doubt and prejudice. Some of us have been violently anti-religious. To others, the word "God" brought up a particular idea of Him us with which someone had tried to impress < them > during child- hood. Perhaps we rejected this particular conception because it seemed inadequate. With that rejection we imagined we had abandoned the God idea entirely. We were bothered
46 with the thought that faith and dependence upon a Power beyond ourselves was somewhat weak, even cowardly. We looked upon this world of warring individuals, warring theological systems, < and > inexplicable calamity, with deep skepticism. We looked askance at many individuals who claimed to be godly. How could a Supreme Being have anything to do with it all? And who could comprehend a Supreme Being anyhow? Yet, in other moments, we found the ourselves thinking, when enchanted by < a > starlit night, "Who, then, made all this?" There was a feeling of awe and wonder, but it was fleeting and soon lost. Yes, we of agnostic temperament have had these thoughts and experiences. Let us make haste to reassure you. We found that as soon as we were able to lay aside prejudice and express even a willingness to believe in a Power greater than ourselves, we commenced to get results, even though it was impossible for any of us to fully define or comprehend that Power, which is God. Much to our relief, we discovered we did not need to consider another's conception of God. Our own conception, however inadequate, was sufficient to make the approach and to effect a contact with Him. As soon as we admitted the A possible existence of a Creative Intelligence, < a > Spirit of the Universe underlying the totality of things, we began to be possessed of a new sense of power and direction, provided we took other simple steps. We found that God does not make < too > hard terms with those who seek Him. To us, the Realm of Spirit is broad, roomy, all inclusive; never exclusive or forbidding < to those who earnestly seek >. It is open, we believe, to all men.
47 When, therefore, we speak to you of God, we mean your own conception of God. This applies, too, to other spiritual expressions which you find in this book. Do not let any prejudice you may have against spiritual terms deter you from honestly asking yourself what they mean to you. is all you will need At the start, this < was all we needed > to commence your spiritual growth, to effect < our > first conscious , you understand relation with God < > as < we understood > Him. Afterward, you will find yourself < we found ourselves > accepting many things which now seem is < then seemed > entirely out of reach. That < was > you are going , you have growth, but if < we wished > to grow < we had > to use your to begin somewhere. So < we used our > own conception, may be however limited it < was >. You need ask yourself < We needed to ask ourselves > but one short question. "Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?" As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way. It has been repeatedly proven among us that upon this simple cornerstone a wonderfully effective spiritual structure can be built. That was great news to us, for we had assumed we could not make use of spiritual principles unless we accepted many things on faith which seemed difficult to believe. When people presented us with spiritual approaches, how frequently did we all say, "I wish I had what that man has. I'm sure it would work if I could only believe as he be- lieves. But I cannot accept as surely true the many articles of faith which are so plain to him." So it was comforting to learn that we could commence at a simpler level. Besides a seeming inability to accept much on faith,
48 we often found ourselves handicapped by obstinacy, sensitive- ness, and unreasoning prejudice. Many of us have been so touchy that even casual reference to spiritual things made us bristle with antagonism. This sort of thinking had to be abandoned. Though some of us resisted, we found no great difficulty in casting aside such feelings. Faced with alco- holic destruction, we soon became as open minded on spiritual matters as we had tried to be on other questions. In this respect alcohol was a great persuader. It finally beat us into a state of reasonableness. Sometimes this was a tedious process; we hope no one will be prejudiced < for > as long as some of us were. The reader may still ask why he should believe in a Power greater than himself. We think there are good reasons. Let us have a look at some of them. The practical individual of today is a stickler for facts and results. Nevertheless, the twentieth century readily accepts theories of all kinds, provided they are firmly grounded in fact. We have numerous theories, for example, about electricity. Everybody believes them with out a murmur of doubt. Why this ready acceptance? Simply because it is impossible to explain what we see, feel, direct, and use, without a reasonable assumption as a starting point. Everybody nowadays, believes in scores of assumptions for which there is good evidence, but no perfect visual proof. And does not science demonstrate that visual proof is the weakest proof? It is being constantly revealed, as mankind studies the material world, that outward appearances are not inward reality at all. To illustrate: The prosaic steel girder is a mass of electrons
49 whirling around each other at incredible speed. These tiny bodies are governed by precise laws, and these laws hold true throughout the material world. Science tells us so. We have no reason to doubt it. When, however, the perfectly logical assumption is suggested that underneath the material world , < > and life as we see it, there is an All Powerful, Guiding, Creative Intelligence, right there our perverse streak comes to the surface and we laboriously set out to convince our- selves it isn't so. We read wordy books and indulge in windy arguments, thinking we believe this universe needs no God to explain it. Were our contentions true, it would follow that life originated out of nothing, means nothing, and proceeds nowhere. Instead of regarding ourselves as intelligent agents, spearheads of God's ever advancing Creation, we agnostics and atheists chose to believe that our human intelligence was the last word, the alpha and the omega, the beginning and end of all. Rather vain of us, wasn't it? We, who have traveled this dubious path, beg you to lay aside prejudice, even against organized religion. We have learned that whatever the human frailties of various faiths may be, those faiths have given purpose and direction to millions. People of faith have a logical idea of what life is all about. Actually, we used to have no reasonable as we conception whatever. We used to amuse ourselves < by > dissected cynically < dissecting > spiritual beliefs and practices ; < when > we might have observed that many spiritually-minded persons of all races, colors, and creeds were demonstrating a degree of stability, happiness and usefulness which we should have sought ourselves.
50 Instead, we looked at the human defects of these people, and sometimes used their shortcomings as a basis of wholesale condemnation. We talked of intolerance, while we were intolerant ourselves. We missed the reality and the beauty of the forest because we were diverted by the ugliness of some of its trees. We never gave the spiritual side of life a fair hearing. the which follow In < our personal > stories < > you will find < a > wide variation in the way each teller approaches and conceives of the Power which is greater than himself. you Whether < we > agree with a particular approach or conception seems to make little difference. Experience has taught < us > that these are matters about which, for our purpose, we need not be worried. They are questions for each individual to settle for himself. On one proposition, however, these men and women are strikingly agreed. Every one of them has gained access to, and believes in, a Power greater than himself. This Power has in each case accomplished the miraculous, the humanly puts impossible. As a celebrated American statesman < put > it, "Let's look at the record." one hundred Here are < thousands of > men and women, worldly and sophisticated to you < > indeed. They flatly declare < > that since they have come to believe in a Power greater than themselves, to take a certain attitude toward that Power, and to do certain simple things, there has been a revolutionary They tell you change in their way of living and thinking. < > that in < In > the face of collapse and despair, in the face of the total failure of their human resources, < they found > Power that a new < power >, peace, happiness, and sense of direction has < > flowed into them. This happened soon after they whole- heartedly met a few simple requirements. Once
51 confused and baffled by the seeming futility of existence, will you they < > show < > the underlying reasons why they were making heavy going of life. Leaving aside the drink question, will they tell why living was so unsatisfactory. They < > show you one hundred < > how the change came over them. When < many hundreds > , much like you, < of > people < > are able to say that < the > The consciousness of < the > Presence of God is today the most important fact of their lives, they present a powerful reason you too why < one > should have faith. This world of ours has made more material progress in the last century than in all the millenniums which went before. Almost everyone knows the reason. Students of ancient history tell us that the intellect of men in those days was equal to the best of today. Yet in ancient times material progress was painfully slow. The spirit of modern scientific inquiry, research and invention was almost unknown. In the realm of the material, men's minds were fettered by superstition, The tradition, and all sorts of fixed ideas. < Some of the > contemporaries of Columbus thought a round earth preposterous. like them Others < > came near putting Galileo to death for his astronomical heresies. But ask yourself are < We asked ourselves > this: < Are > not some of us just as biased and unreasonable about the realm of the spirit as were the ancients about the realm of the material? Even in the present century, American newspapers were afraid to print Brothers' an account of the Wright < brothers' > first successful flight Kittyhawk at < Kitty Hawk >. Had not all efforts at flight failed be- absurd fore? Did not Professor Langley's < > flying machine go river to the bottom of the Potomac < River >? Was it not true that the best mathematical minds had proved man could never fly? Had not people said God had reserved this privilege to the
52 birds? Only thirty years later the conquest of the air was almost an old story and airplane travel was in full swing. But in most fields our generation has witnessed complete liberation of our thinking. Show any longshoreman a Sunday supplement describing a proposal to explore the moon by means of a rocket and he will say, "I bet they do it – maybe not so long either." Is not our age characterized by the ease with which we discard old ideas for new, by the complete readiness with which we throw away the theory or gadget which does not work for something new which does? We had to ask ourselves why we shouldn't apply to our the human problems this same readiness to change < our > point of view. We were having trouble with personal relation- ships, we couldn't control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn't make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn't seem to be of real help to other this bedevilment people – was not a basic solution of < these bedevilments > more important than whether we should see newsreels of lunar flight? Of course it was. When we saw others solve their problems by < a > simple this universe reliance upon the Spirit of < the Universe >, we had to stop doubting the power of God. Our ideas did not work. But the God idea did. Brothers' The Wright < brothers' > almost childish faith that they could build a machine which would fly was the mainspring of their accomplishment. Without that, nothing could have hap- pened. We agnostics and atheists were sticking to the idea that self-sufficiency would solve our problems. When others showed us that "God-sufficiency"
53 worked with them, we began to feel like those who had insisted the Wrights would never fly. Logic is great stuff. We liked it. We still like it. It is not by chance we were given the power to reason, to examine the evidence of our senses, and to draw conclusions. That is one of man's magnificent attributes. We agnostically inclined would not feel satisfied with a proposal which does not lend itself to reasonable approach and interpretation. Hence we are at pains to tell you why we think our present faith is reasonable, why we think it more sane and logical to believe than not to believe, why we say our former think- ing was soft and mushy when we threw up our hands in doubt and said, "We don't know." When we became alcoholics, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is, or He isn't. What was our choice to be? Arrived at this point, we were squarely confronted with the question of faith. We couldn't duck the issue. Some of us had already walked far over the Bridge of Reason toward the desired shore of faith. The outlines and the promise of the New Land had brought lustre to tired eyes and fresh courage to flagging spirits. Friendly hands had stretched out in welcome. We were grateful that Reason had brought us so far. But somehow, we couldn't quite step ashore. Perhaps we had been leaning too heavily on Reason that last mile and we did not like to lose our support. That was natural, but let us think a little more closely. Without knowing it, had we not been brought to where we stood by a certain kind of faith? For did
54 we not believe in our own reasoning? Did we not have confi- dence in our ability to think? What was that but a sort of faith? Yes, we had been faithful, abjectly faithful to the God of Reason. So, in one way or another, we discovered that faith had been involved all the time! We found < , > too, that we had been worshippers. What a state of mental goose-flesh that used to bring on! Had we not variously worshipped people, sentiment, things, money, and ourselves? And then, with a better motive, had we not worshipfully beheld the sunset, the sea, or a flower? Who of us had not loved something or somebody? How much did these feelings, these loves, these worships, have to do with pure reason? Little or nothing, we saw at last. Were not these things the tissue out of which our lives were constructed? Did not these feelings, after all, determine the course of our existence? It was impossible to say we had no capacity for faith, or love, or worship. In one form or another we had been living by faith and little else. Imagine life without faith! Were nothing left but pure reason, it wouldn't be life. But we believed in life – of course we did. We could not prove life in the sense that you can prove a straight line is the shortest distance : between two points < , > yet, there it was. Could we still say the whole thing was nothing but a mass of electrons, created out of nothing, meaning nothing, whirling on to a destiny of nothingness? Of course we couldn't. The electrons themselves seemed more intelligent than that. At least, so the chemist said. Hence, we saw that reason isn't everything. Neither is reason, as most of us use it, entirely dependable,
55 though it emanate from our best minds. What about people who proved that man could never fly? Yet we had been seeing another kind of flight, a spiritual liberation from this world, people who rose above their problems. They said God made these things possible, and we only smiled. We had seen spiritual release, but liked to tell ourselves it wasn't true. Actually we were fooling ourselves, for deep down in every man, woman, and child, is the fundamental idea of God. It may be obscured by calamity, by pomp, by worship of other things, but in some form or other it is there. For faith in a Power greater than ourselves, and miraculous demonstrations of that power in human lives, are facts as old as man himself. We finally saw that faith in some kind of God was a part of our make-up, just as much as the feeling we have for a friend. Sometimes we had to search fearlessly, but He was And we are sure there. He was as much a fact as we were. < > you will find you < We found > the Great Reality deep down within < us >. In the last analysis it is only there that He may be found. ; why not with you? It was so with us < . > for you We can only clear the ground a bit < >. If our testimony helps sweep away prejudice, enables you to think honestly, encourages you to search diligently within you will have joined us yourself, then < , if you wish, you can join > us on the Broad Highway. With this attitude you cannot fail. The that you do believe consciousness < of your belief > is sure to come to you. In this book you will read the experience of a man who thought he was an atheist. His story is so interesting that some of it should be told now. His change of heart was dramatic, convincing, and moving.
56 Our friend was a minister's son. He attended church school, where he became rebellious at what he thought an overdose of religious education. For years thereafter he was dogged by trouble and frustration. Business failure, insanity, fatal illness, suicide – these calamities in his immediate family embittered and depressed him. Post-war disillusionment, ever more serious alcoholism, impending mental and physical collapse, brought him to the point of self-destruction. One night < , > when confined in a hospital, he was app- roached by an alcoholic who had known a spiritual experience. Our friend's gorge rose as he bitterly cried out: "If there . is a God, He certainly hasn't done anything for me < ! >" But later, alone in his room, he asked himself this question: "Is it possible that all the religious people I have known , are wrong?" While pondering the answer < > he felt as though he lived in hell. Then, like a thunderbolt, a great thought WHO ARE YOU TO SAY THERE came. It crowded out all else: "< Who are you to say there > IS NO GOD? < is no God? >" This man recounts that he tumbled out of bed to his knees. In a few seconds he was overwhelmed by a conviction of the Presence of God. It poured over and through him with the certainty and majesty of a great tide at flood. The barriers he had built through the years were swept away. He stood in the Presence of Infinite Power and Love. He had stepped from bridge to shore. For the first time, he lived in conscious companionship with his Creator. Thus was our friend's cornerstone fixed in place. No later vicissitude has shaken it. His alcoholic problem three was taken away. That very night < , > years ago < , > it
57 , disappeared. Save for a few brief moments of temptation < > the thought of drink has never returned; and at such times a great revulsion has risen up in him. Seemingly he could not drink even if he would. God had restored his sanity. What is this but a miracle of healing? Yet its elements are simple. Circumstances made him willing to believe. He humbly offered himself to his Maker – then he knew. Even so has God restored us all to our right minds. Revelation To this man, the < revelation > was sudden. Some of us grow into it more slowly. But He has come to all who have honestly sought Him. Draw and will disclose < When we drew > near to Him < > He < disclosed > you Himself to < us >!